ok so Grandma goes back in for surgery today this afternoon. She sounds really good but can only talk on a cell phone cause she is too weak to hold onto the hospital phone. My family is so weird - my sister texts me with half of the information of what goes on or she doesn't text me at all. When she calls (2 times only) she tells me but has an attitude about telling me like she didn't want to make the call in the first place and tells me how my mom told her to call. My mom doesn't call at all, when I call the hospital to talk to Grandma she acts like she doesn't even know its me, "oh, I didn't recognize your voice " or she just hands it to grandma. My Aunt Dee is the only one that has even treated me like part of the family. She calls gives me the info asks if I understand if I have questions and hows the family, I ask how she is doing, how is Sandy doing and she tells me she loves me after each phone call. My own mother doesn't even do that. You would think with everything going on that your family would make a point to let each other know that they love each other because you never know when the Lord will call your name. But nope, not my family, then Jeff answered my moms phone when I called, Jeff - yes the man that likes to call himself Uncle and is a pedifilist and has hurt my family more than anyone I know, thats a whole nother story, I don't want him answering my moms phone I didn't call to speak to Satans follower only to my mother. Yup I'm being spiteful but sometimes I can't help it.
Now Barbra and me where getting along really well till she had to open her freakin mouth again and tell me how unfair I am and I don't treat the kids right, well damn it, she can raise them then , she is so much better than me. I told Steve I want her out, he says its his Mom and she has no where to go. I have tried to turn the other cheek and now the other and now the other but I don't think God intended me to be a door either. What am I suppose to do? I love my family, she is bringing chaos into my family the common thing is her and I can't get rid of her, what now? She hurts my feelings so bad, then pretends like it never happened. Steve's talked and talked to her and no change. She's the closest thing I have to family here and she treats me like shit. I thought that since I dont have really any close friends yet that me and her could be close instead she hates me. And I am getting close to hating her. A couple of weeks ago all I wanted was a hug, I needed a hug, I asked her if I could ask her a question - I wanted to know if she would feel comfortable hugging me, instead she said she didn't feel like answering my questions and walked away. Now you know that I don't get where I need a hug very often and that was really hard for me to do and she rejected me before I even asked. She's a negative person, she's a rude and spitefull person and I don't want her around the kids. Well I better quite whining and go work out - I always feel better after I run, I think of her and I bust out a mile or two then I'm too tired to fight :) I miss Washington, I miss my friends, I miss living with my family in my house, I miss feeling like I belonged. Hadn't felt that way in a long time and yet across the country on a beautiful day once again I don't belong. A miss fit to the core, not something I'm proud of just something I thought I had lost long ago.

Grandma Shultz - The Lords Peace.

So I haven't been keeping anyone updated. Talked to my Aunt Dee - she's an awesome person and she said that Grandma made it through on the surgery on Monday and there will be another one today. There was so much infection that they were really surprised that Grandma was alive but she's a fighter I tell you. That woman had 6 kids, and still talks to them all today despite how they might or might not of ended up. Takes a good woman to love and deal with everything she has done. And she is still on her way! I talked with her yesterday and she sounded so good, her spirits were good and me and the kids got to see her on Skype before the surgery so that was really nice. Weird thing is that I was really worried about not going especially when my mother reminded me 4 times on one phone call that my brother would be there, (hint, hint - yup thats my mom) so I prayed about it, not a deep prayer but just always on my mind prayer, and something happened, over the next few days when I was going to decide to go or not and talking to Steve I got a sense of calming. I wasn't worried about her, and I new God was going to get her through this. Her surgery today and I am not worried about it. Even if something does go wrong, the Lord blessed me with peace. I know he is with her and I know that if she leaves us she will be with him - we will see her soon enough. Should I not see her in May - I will see her in heaven. And I'm ok with that. She is in God's hands, and which ever his choice may be, seeing her on Skype and talking to her yesterday will not be the last time I see, talk, or hear my Grandmothers voice. God gave me peace, and for all his doing I am thankful. Thank you Lord - you heard my prayers, and thank you for having friends to read this that will pray right along side of me.

Pray - God Hear Me

God save my Grandma, I know its your will but I pray that your will is the same as ours, to keep her here. God I know that you have a plan and I hope that plan doesn't include her name anytime soon. Lord, be with my Grandma, she's a wonderful person and she is loved by many. Calm her fears Lord, I pray that no matter what the outcome you be with her give her courage, and inner peace. I pray that she not be scared and that she stays in good spirits. Lord I ask that you take my Mom and my Aunts under your wing and let them lean on you in their time of need. I never know what to say to them but I feel their pain, My aunt De's voice says how much she hurts and have no words of encouragement for her. Let her hear you Lord, let her worry's fall on you. Lord be with the doctors, surgeons, and nurses that will be taking care of Grandma. Lord hear our prayers. In Jesus's Name I pray.

Grandma Shultz

On Tuesday Grandma was suppose to have surgery on THursday, now its Thursday and she is having the surgery on Monday. My mom called me and was talking to me then all of a sudden my aunt got on the phone and said they don't think Grandma will survive the surgery and if I want to see her to come there by Monday. Thats it thats all I got. Then she said she had to go cause she had to tell someone else the same thing. What a thing to say, maybe its just me and I know she's under a serious amount of stress cause its her Mom right but why wasn't I talking to my mom and why was my aunt so cold. Grandma could come through this and be walking around in no time, they are planning on her not making it or at least that is what it seems like. I don't know if I should go or not, its a 12 hour drive and Barbra would have to take care of the 4 kids, Steve is knee deep in work so its not like I can depend on him for anything right now other than going to work. I just need to keep me and the kids out of his way and now I want to leave all four with his mom? who can't take care of them for more than a few hours? I mean she can but then they tell me how mean she is and things aren't done right, and its not that they aren't done right its that they aren't done my way. And you know me I want them done my way with my kids. Its not like she does anything wrong.....I don't know. Then I was talking with Steve and her and by the way he told me that if I want to go to go the kids will be fine but I just can't not worry about it. ok so I'm talking to them and she tells me that people shouldn't go to their Grandma's stuff like that that that is for the kids not the grandkids. But I'm close to my Grandma I love my grandma, and I would want her to come see me if something happened to me. I just don't want anything to happen to her and I don't know what to do. All I can do is cry. ......

Grandma Shultz

Grandma is sick again, pretty serious this time. She is going to have surgery on Thursday morning. Bessie called the red cross to get Mom home to be here for the surgery. The surgery could be the best or the worst depending on the outcome. My Aunts are scared, so am I. Grandma has always been there you know. She's Grandma, the only place that I wake up in and know the smell, and all the sounds. I never stayed in one place long enough for me to know those things from my Mom. But Grandma, she's lived in the same house my whole life, I remember making ornaments with her when I was 5 or something crazy like that. Grandma is always happy to hear from me, and there's nothing like her hello and the sound of her voice when you say Hi Grandma.....She's a strong woman. I am praying that she is ok.

What were you doing at 6 o'clock?

Me? Well I was showering. Twenty minutes in the shower, that's all I wanted. During that 20 minutes I had three knocks at the door. Mooommmm.............That was a lot less than I thought but still. I got all lotioned and dressed,smelling good and open the door and what do I see? Why its Hunter in mid toss of a silver bowl, OMG he has the cat's food bowl only there isn't food coming out of it. There is kitty litter every where, cat caca everywhere in the hallway, and cat food everywhere. Now the hallway isn't a huge area but it was big enough for him to spread the litter everywhere. I called for Steve who immediatly came up and cleaned it all up with the help of his Mom. It only takes a minute for Hunter to destroy the hallway, that kid is quick! I took Hunter into the bath right away and washed him. He had kitty litter in his hair, armpit and yup in between his little piggys.........cleaned him up and back to it. Never a dull moment.

Angeal is 9!!!

Angela had her Birthday party over the weekend. We had it at the skating rink. They had a blast. We had 8 little girls here total. They talked about boys, what they wore, makeup and what they were going to wear on Monday hahahaha they were so funny!!! She had a great time and she is now into Justice. Its a girl store here and its the high end of the name brand clothes. So I took her there and she was even surprised at how much stuff was so we went over the clearance rack and why we love that rack so much :) All in all it was a great time.

Mia just got out of the shower and I came downstairs, out of the corner of my eye I see the cat in the living room and she looks different. So I reach down and pick her up - then I realize that she is soaking wet! She is shaking and cold and just wet. Then it came to me - Mia took a shower with her. I got a towel and dried her up, trying not to laugh - I went back upstairs and asked Mia if she gave the cat a bath, and she calmly answered - yeah I thought she needed to be cleaned. It didn't even faze her that you don't give cats baths!!! hahahahahaha, I straight faced told her that she can not give the cat a bath that she is probably in shock now and not to do it again. Poor cat :)

ok so its been awhile, have been crazy busy so lets catch up. Angela turned 9! Man she is turning into a little lady now :) She's so beautiful. Grandma went into the hospital, got out, going to try and see her soon its a long drive to Chicago. The kids have one more week of PSSA state testing then back to normal. Steve went from 12 hours days to working 23 hours in 30 hours. Back to 8 hours now and we are sooooo glad. Found a house, put an offer in, she refused - blessing in disquise the roof leaked. Angela's party is this weekend. Mom is going to try and move back to the states. Hunter pee'd in the Potty yesterday for the first time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now we have pull ups. Looking at more houses tomorrow. Chase got his contacts and will go for braces next week thats going to be fun. Will got hurt at wrestling practice and then he was better. He got pink eye and I won a free massage from a drawing. Ok, I think thats it. I will be on more, at least I'm going to try. Oh yeah almost forgot I took my final in Chemistry and got a B. If I'm good I will have completed two more class's by the end of the month.

Our Phones

I couldn't call anyone and wish them a Happy Easter because last week some how we lost Steve's phone then on Saturday we lost mine. I've been going insane looking for it. I even put a reward up for ten bucks! That's alot of money for the kids,they looked up and down and still didn't find it. My purse was so violated! I don't think she's ever been handled that much in a few days. Well on Monday I got a Skype call from my Mom telling me that my Grandma is in the hospital again and not doing good, and oh by the way the YMCA has your phone.......WT....are you talking about???? Well apparently I left it at the Y on Saturday morning when I took the kids to their stuff, the kids were using my phone and I never got it back. AKA the kids talk to much on my phone!!!!!! Ok so the Y called my Uncle Roy in Washington to let him know I forgot my phone across the country and to ask me to just whip on up there to pick it back up. Why Uncle Roy??? I have no idea....but my Uncle Roy got the message and called my Pops in Texas, My Pops got the message and called my sister in Indiana, My sister got the message and called my Mom - IN GERMANY, my mom Skyped me and went and got my phone. Needless to say it was very tired from its whole ordeal and I had to charge it up really good before I could use it. Got it back now and have read all my message. Happy Easter everyone. :) That just leaves Steve's phone, yesterday he was looking for Hunter's shoes in the closet and in the corner there lye his phone! What are the odds of that??? He was close to getting a new one I just know it and then along came his to find its way back. No touchscreen for YOU! We are both glad to have our phones back and are thinking about a home phone but we will have to see. So sorry if I missed any phone calls or text messages.

Happy Easter 2010

Well Happy Easter everyone, it was very different this year for us. First - me and the kids went to Church alone, I guess I wasn't alone, I mean there are five of them! But anyways Steve had to work so it was just us. This weekend will be his last weekend worked, at least for a few more weeks. Then either days or nights I can't remember which one at the moment. I still made Easter dinner but we waited for Steve to get home to have it, and the Easter Bunny just happen to be passing by when we were eating dinner and leave stuff. The 4 older kids know about the "Easter Bunny" so Chase helped me hide eggs while the others ate. He was hiding them and he was really trying to HIDE them, I told him we were hiding for Hunter and put an egg in the middle of the living room. That is hiding for Hunter. He said he got it but yesterday Angela found an egg that was well hidden so I'm pretty sure he didn't understand. But he tried and he was really excited about hiding them it was really cute. Hunter got 3 eggs at the Easter hunt at Church. He didn't get it till almost the end, wondering around looking at other kids was much more interesting to him. It was still a good Easter, we celebrated Jesus Rising for us and taking our sins on the cross. Ultimately that is what Easter is for so the eggs and a bunny that lays them can take the back seat for this one! He has Risen!

So Tuesday we unpacked more of the basement and made an area for the girls. The boys got upset because they wanted the downstairs all to themselves. Now that the girls have an art area the boys can't keep them out but they will get over it. Yesterday we went to the Philly Zoo. Hunter loved it, he loves the monkey's. Everytime he saw a monkey jump he said Woooow! Some of the spider monkeys started jumping around and playing and he got so excited, Wow Wow Wow Wow he just kept going. It was alot of fun. We actually missed alot of animals but after 4 hours there we were so tired and ready to go home. All the kids had a lot of fun and I really enjoyed my time with them. There are only 3 days left till school, I'm going to kind of miss not having the kids around :) but I think me and Hunter can handle it :P Today we aren't sure if we are going to go to Valley Forge or just hang out, the girls are awake but the boys are still out. Will had wrestling last night so he is sleeping extra good.