New House

Hallo everyone.............. sorry its been awhile. We didn't have internet here at our new house. But now we do. Its been a busy few weeks, and so many things have been going on. We are not completely moved in just yet but we are close. We are living here we just still have stuff at the other house. No rush at getting the stuff. We still have another month to move out so every day we go by the old house and we bring a truck load back. We did the uhaul thing for the big stuff and its just little stuff now. The kids love their school and I am getting one day a week so far to just play with Hunter. Thats the best part, it makes everything else go away and fade into the distance. Its funny, just when you think there's nothing left and you can't take another day of the chaos your life contains, you take a deep breath and ask God to guide you. Then as if the Lord just pressed a button and for those few desperately needed moments everythings ok. The laugh from the little guy just makes my heart sing. The Lord always knows what we need. Well I'm rambling and its time to put Hunter to bed.

Busy Busy Day

So I had to go to Home Depot at 8am this morning to tell them we changed our mind about the dryer installation and yes we do want them to install it. I have never had to work so hard to get an individual to understand the words coming out of my mouth!!! I have laringitus or how ever you spell it, so I am a raspy whisper at best - poor lady she is over a 100 and hard of hearing and of course she is the only one in the department, why wouldn't she be the only one there today.............oooooohhhhh when we finally taught her how do use the box with the letters on it, we ended up just calling to confirm the changes. The dryer and the fridge will be delivered on Friday!!! Then the house is livable. Well the fridge is a must!!! Then the air duct cleaners were there. I love how they tell you we will be here between sometime in the morning and sometime in the afternoon and we expect you to wait and twiddle your thumbs with a two year old in an empty house. Yup but they do, they all do and what do we do? We bend over and take it with a smile. So we did just that, and when they showed up we were happy to see them. It is amazing what getting those things cleaned did to the house, it smells wonderful. They were horribly dirty and full of dog hair, there is no way Steve is going to let us get a dog after this is all over. I'm not sure I will ever want a dog either. So now that the house is live able we will move things in. (sssshhhhhh, don't tell anyone but I already started :P ) A little bed here and there, no one will ever miss it. Oh and I missed the best part of my day today. I had lunch with my very good friend Yvonne, I met her through our small group and she has been such a blessing. I really needed to have some one on one time with another Christian woman. I was telling my Husband, who is still on lone to the navy, that even though it wasn't as much time as I would have liked it to be, just talking to her was uplifting. She is truly a wonderful person and I am blessed to know her. I look up to her as a Woman of Faith. So with my prayers on the tip of my tongue tonight I will now turn in................Good Night.

Brothers

Check this out. Isn't it great. Chase on his Rip Stick and he is getting so good at it that he can ride with Hunter on it. This is in our Neeeewwww driveway :) Look at them. Hunter loves his big brother!!!

Relative or Family Member???

 Had a chat with my Pops........I love my Pop. He is such a good person, I mean he's one of those people that you are drawn too. I haven't met anyone that didn't like him. He is just a like-able guy. When things are bad I know I can call him and he will tell me how good they are. He always has a smile on his face and you can see it threw the phone. When we talked this time he was telling me once again how he hates to see that I am yet again a loner in my own family. He knows more about what is going on with my family half the time than I do. Why? Well cause he's a great guy and is easy to talk to. Because no matter what I do I will always be an outcast in my own family. Its weird you know, you grow up in the same house as someone, share a room next to them for more than half your life and today you would never know it. It makes me sick to my stomach to think of sitting at a table with that part of my family. Its really just sad....my Pop always says, your family is who lives under your roof, who you wake up and see every day, who knows you today and tomorrow, and their day to day life would change if you weren't there. The rest well their just relatives. So maybe I'm not an outcast in my family. Maybe I have more relatives than I thought. And maybe I'm not the outcast. Maybe Pop is right - Maybe I'm the head of my family, me and my husband. And maybe just maybe my Pop will see me smiling through the phone.

Doing good, real good

The other day I had someone ask me how I was doing, how I had been since it had been awhile since I had seen this individual. My reply was simple and honest. Doing good, real good. Later as I let this person peer but a glimpse into the demons in my life, she stated I just asked you how you were and you said you were good. As I listened to myself state the issues for that moment, some how I was not over come, I was not upset, I was not quivering as the words left my lips, instead I smiled, I joked about the hardships that me and my family deal with on a daily basis, I took a deep breath - and I was good. In the midst of everything going on some how God has brought me something I have not been praying for, something I didn't think was possible, something I wouldn't have prayed for, but God knew, God knew what I needed. Among all the turmoil God has given me peace. A peace I didn't even realize I had till the other night. A peace that warms your heart to know that even though you may be questioning God and all his glory, he still finds time to answer your hearts prayers, even when you don't know what to pray about. Or how to ask for help. God hears what your mouth can't say. Those moments when you hear your own heartbeat, those moments that seem to last forever, those moments when you look at your life and think - what the hell is going on. God hears you. And I couldn't ask for anything better.

Car Wash

Not only does the Navy Reserves request all of your time as but when you are a  Chief Select Petty Officer you are required to do Car Wash's and good ones at that! :) Today Steve and the rest of the guys worked really hard and washed a ton of cars! They earned $634.00 dollars. Actually double that, the owners of one of the local business's said they would match what ever they made. Awesome! They have to raise money as part of the fundraising to give back to the mess. Its the first time since we have been here that I have seen Navy personnel outside of a base. I drove up and I saw the shirts and them running around, it made me sad that we don't live on base anymore. I remember when the Selectee's had to pump your gas and they took donations for that. It was so neat to see the car wash. The kids and I made signs that we held out in front of the car wash and yelled at people to come get their car washed. Even Hunter was out there with me Hooping and Hollering. It was fun. Me and the girls spent all day Friday making cookies, and cupcakes, and brownies, and I mean all freakin day!!! My genius but forgot that Friday was a holiday and woke everyone up at 0 dark Hundred, once I realized they didn't have school it was too late. So I mean we were cooking aaaallllll day.........but it was for a good cause and the girls loved telling everyone at the car wash that they made those.