Listen

Last week I heard someone give advice to another person. It was simple and to the point, and yet I struggle with it. "Try listening to God, talk to him - but spend some time really listening" It seems like such an easy task. Just listen, ok I can listen - I hear things everyday this should be no different. Shut my mouth and open my ears. But when I do this there are a million things going through my mind. I turn it off and nothing happens, I sit there and wonder what am I suppose to be doing? Is this a waste of my time? Why can't I hear him? Am I doing this right? There is a huge difference between the word listen and hear. Hear is when you know someone is talking or something is going on but you haven't taken it in and processed it. You haven't allowed your heart to accept it. We pray so much and ask God for so much, do we ever stop and listen? And if you do, what do you do if you don't hear anything. I have heard God's voice before! Its the most amazing feeling you will ever have in your entire life. I think its harder when you have heard it and then when you try to listen you don't hear it. Like on that movie Men in Black - Will Smith says " You know what they say, its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" and the other guy says "Try it". So when you are down and out, or even on top of clouds this week, take the time to listen....you just might hear an amazing voice - I hope I do...

Stuff Everywhere

We took all of our stuff over to Maryann and Bob's today. We are having a yard sale. It seems like so much stuff but once its laid out it doesn't seem like it was worth even being in your house. Its amazing the things that we buy and spend our hard working money on. I remember back when it was just me and the kids and I would go to yard sale after yard sale and never get anything, I would come home and my walls were bare, my end tables only had a candle or two on them - and that was ok, I enjoyed the simplicity of it all. Now there is so much crap everywhere its crazy. I just started loading stuff in bins the other day. I didn't care what it was or when was the last time we used it I just want my simple tables and candles back. I may not get all of them back but this yard sale is a start. It took us 3 trips to Maryann and Bob's and tomorrow morning I plan on filling the Honda up with as much as it can fit! Wish me Luck :)

Spray Park

Our church does a weekly meeting somewhere around town for all the mothers and kids. THis week it was at the spray park. It was so hot I even thought about going into the park with my cloths on and just getting wet!!! But the kids had fun, we ate lunch there and headed home. It was so tiring, I am done for the night. Going to sleep.

A Hot Shower

I am still not able to take a hot shower, well its not cold but its absolutely not as hot as I used to have it. I get so winded and short of breath now that my lungs can't handle the thickness of the air. The steam or whatever, I wonder if I will be able to ever have a HOT HOT HOT shower again. Maybe not, maybe tomorrow the Lord will heal me and this will all be but a memory in the journey we call life. Maybe tomorrow will never come. I know I feel blessed to have had today. My husband that I love dearly, my children, they are so beautiful every last one of them. We have a house, and employment, and most of all we have each other. With all the new medical problems that have come up the last few months and yet I can't help but to still be so thankful. The Lord is good and he is providing. We are proof of that every single day we open our eyes in the morning!

Zoo

We went to the Philly Zoo yesterday. It was really nice and breezy in the morning but then it got crazy hot! Either way the kids had fun. We took Ciera Mia's friend from Girl Scouts and her little brother with us. They had a blast. Hunter stayed awake the entire time I was really surprised but he did. I knew when we got in the car to go home he was going to be out. And sure enough, we weren't out on the highway yet and snoring away he was! The kids want to go to New York next..........can you see it??? Me and the 5 kids alone in New York City??? That should be fun.............

Angela Girl Scout Camp

Now its Angela's turn! We dropped her off yesterday, and I got all teary eyed. Its like we just got her back and here she goes again. Next time I will give it more time in between her coming and going. Steve says it just me doing the Mom thing but still she won't be back till Friday. She was so excited to go. When my last phone went out I lost alot of my phone numbers and all of her friends numbers were in there so she hasn't been able to talk to any of her friends. I told her when she gets back we will drive over to her friends house's and get their numbers and I will put it in my awesome new Palm Pre Phone that syncs up to Cyber space and keeps your stuff on a profile. So awesome, made just for people like me - everything is saved on a server and if I screw up my phone they still have it on file.