Spring Break

Spring Break has started, yesterday - Monday was the first day and boy was it a day :P William had a doctor's appointment first thing in the morning since we figured he had pink eye, on Saturday I had taken the kids to the Y to go swimming and Will's eyes were red but we figured it was because of the chlorine in the water, well Sunday it was still there so Monday morning to the doctors we go. Then I had my appointment there since we were already there why waste time. Then back to the house to clean, eat and give the kids some playtime.  Then to the eye doctor for Chase, he's getting contacts and has an instructional class on how to take care of them and how to put them in. Then we have Angela's Parent teacher conference, then William's Parent teacher conference, then Chase's Parent Teacher conference, well at the end I was pretty much done and Hunter had had his full share of busy and was ready to go so Mia's is soon to come. All in all it was a busy good day. Will has drops for his eyes, Chase has contacts for his eyes and Hunter is running free at home :) One day down 5 school days to go.

Church today was nice, I get lots of smiles when I walk in like when I went to New Life in Washington. I don't have the past with these people but it stated in washington with a smile too. So maybe I can make a past here. Not like the one I currently have one that I always wanted, one that I always prayed for. You know I've been reading this book by Max Lucado - He came I think, and the book from my small group Boundaries and they were both talking about your past. Lucado talks about how when you confess your sins to the lord he forgives you and washes them away. He doesn't hold onto them and smell a fragerance later and think thats when Becki did ........a song doesn't make him think of a time when I was rec-less and acted that way. He doesn't do that he forgive's and he forgets, thats it he isn't going to hold it over your head. I find the biggest boundary for myself is leaving the past in the past. Not that I want my old life back, I don't but the hurt and things I did, the guilt, I haven't seem to be able to leave it behind. Maybe one of the reason's I am in this group is not only to set boundaries outside my body but from within as well. Today at church a lady named Lisa came up and told me that she was a blended family and asked me how I was holding up with the changes and that the kids seem well adjusted but how was I doing. I smiled and said what I always say when things get thick. I'm fine, how are you? Only she didn't buy it. She looked at me and said how long have you been here, I  told her almost 6 months, she told me it took her almost 2 years to get a routine and feel as if things were finally calmed down. She said it was ok to feel what I was feeling. My eyes just swelled up with tears. Her husband came over and introduced himself, he asked about mine, he is a marine and used to work the shift work that Steve is working now and will be working later. He asked how I was, I told him fine....as the tears dropped and I smiled, I'm fine really. He said - hey 5 kids, blended family, new surroundings, no friends, no families and a mother in law issue. Its ok really. I know I've been there its not ok, its not fun and its not easy. I just knodded. He asked us over for dinner. I will run it by Steve. As we are walking into the auditorium Lisa and me talking, Will tells me my choice of clothing is not great.....I told him I don't need fashion tips from him and Lisa laughed, I was embarassed at first then she pointed to one of her boys. He's mine, doesn't it upset you, I don't know how to get him to stop doing it to me. Its never ending with that one. I was so relieved. Maybe we are a little more normal that we first thought. Steve should be home in an hour or so, I'm trying to have a steak dinner ready for him. We will see how that works out........

GS Event

Today the girls had an girlscouting event. They went skating. When I got there to pick them up Mia comes running up with a tooth in a bag, yelling Mom Mom Mom look what happened. I smile and ask how exactly did that happen. She told me she was chewing on a starburst candy and noticed that it was harder than it should be (aren't they soft?) She's such a goof. So she pulled out her tooth. Susanna the GS troop leader was telling me that she was bleeding and Susanna told her it was ok for her to go was all the blood out of her mouth, Mia said nope I like the taste of blood. Susanna thought that was the funniest thing in the world, I told Mia that was actually a little strange, and to myself I'm saying a little scary.............but either way they both had a blast. Angela is getting so tall, and she's getting to the awkward stage quicker than I thought. I remember when I first met her, she was this little blonde girl that smiled all the time. Now .......man they just grow so fast.

Library Time

Today me and Hunter went to the library for story time and he just wouldn't get into it this time. He was more interested in the cars that were going by outside than in the old ladies book. Then one of the librarian's started setting up for crafts. They had small bottles of water, which he tried drinking several times - different color square craft paper with sticky back, which he tried eating several times - and dirt, which once in his mouth was hard to get him to let go, it wasn't just dirt it was dirt in a frisbie mesh bag, you know you have a hard disk, you add the water and the dirt gets soft and all of a sudden there's more of it, yeah well try having your 20 month old bite into one of those. Its great fun let me tell ya!!!!! Then the lady comes by and gives him sunflower seeds, really?????? Sunflower seeds...........ok, not only did he try to eat it, put it in the water bottles, but put it in his belly button as well. What kind of craft is this???? But he had a blast trying to do all that. He was a busy little guy let me tell you. never stopping. And smiling the whole time. It was fun really it was, he really likes the library. They have color coded computers and I haven't figured out if thats good for him or not. Time will only tell.

Me and Steve took Hunter today to French Creek national Park. We had lunch there out on a picnic table and walked around, it wasn't for long but it was beautiful and it was so nice to have my husband to myself. Hunter fell asleep in the car and I had his undivided attention. I love talking to him, its just hard sometimes when you have the kids, his mom, his phone, the computer, the door, dinner and everything else in life that steps into the conversation. I remember before when we were dating and we would talk for hours on the phone, I would wait for his phone call and I would get so excited. I love talking to him, and its hard to actually have a conversation. you know anyone can talk, hi - bye - nice to see you. But then when you really talk, you feel connected, and you giggle, and laugh, and I don't know how else to explain it other than a good time with my wonderful husband and my cute little man who is getting very big very quick.

Freestyle

Will and I just got back from his first freestyle wrestling practice, and he loved it. He talked about how awesome it was the whole way home. It was great to be in the bleachers watching him, I enjoy watching him so much, its calming to me. All the other mom's are worried that their boys are going to get hurt and I am just watching him with admiration, and a sense of well being. He is a good wrestler! Now I know every mom thinks that their kid is good but I know mine is good :P I'm so glad he finally found his nitch, you know, its beautiful to watch your kid do something that they love. Hopefully he will stick with it and it will be a great thing in his life but for now, he's tired, and excited to go back.

Sesame Street

Today me and the little man went to the library with Sarah for music time and story time. He loved it!!! He really likes to read, he's getting into the Spiderman flip books right now. We watch Elmo's world in the morning too, and he loves that, as soon as he he's the la la la la la la la he starts dancing and smiling and will run over to the couch get his blanket and point to the rocker, we sit there and watch it together. I never thought I would like Sesame Street so much. Today Toysrus in King of Prussia was going out of business so everything was 50-70% off, there were people running and everything it was nuts. So we got Hunter a toddler bed in Cars, he loves that movie. We set it up and he is sleeping in it right now!!! My baby is almost 2! He's so big, and sweet damn I can make some good babies :)