Mia and Chase This time

Mia got her chicken pox vaccine 3 days ago and her arm is still swollen, and her whole upper arm is red and swollen. Her little arm looks like my big fat one! There's one small circle around the injection site, then another bigger circle, then another bigger circle, and the red area has a fever! Its weird, never seen anything like it. Going to take her in to the doc this morning, and Chase already has an appointment, so both of them are going to stay home today and see the doc. Its always one of them but it seems lately that two of them are always sick :(  We will see what the docs say..........

Great Group

I had my Ladies Group the other night and I had such a wonderful time! It was nice to be able to openly speak about things that anywhere else I would feel judged or not even say anything at all. I felt like not only was it ok to talk, but they wanted to hear what I had to say, they were concerned, and when I shared I wasn't looked at and told not to feel that way or that I am being redicoulous, and I don't mean verbally I mean that comment you get with an expression. You know what I'm talking about, the one that as soon as you see it your heart starts pounding, and you know you aren't holding up your end of the deal. Everyone's had that look from someone, and it really sucks! Well I didn't feel that way at all, I felt acceptance. And then at the end, we were all prayed for and told how much God loves us, its nice to know that your loved, and its nice to hear it from others. So it was a great group, wonderful bunch of ladies, and strong - WOW - I can only hope that I am able to be as strong as some of them in my life. What can I say, Group and God - yup, it was a good night :)

Getting Old!

My left foot has been hurting for the last month or so, I've just ignored it, and I didn't injure it so I didn't want to go in. Well after a fun time over the weekend my foot was really bothering me this morning so I finally went in and what do you know, I have some old lady problem.  Plantar Fasciitis is what they call it. It happens when you are on your feet all day and you have flat feet, the Doc says as you get older parts of your body get inflamed, like arthritis. It never goes away, you can get shots for the pain, and sometimes surgery, sometimes a foot doc will make you a linning to use in your shoes, but it never goes away. She smiled and said, it sucks getting old - sorry, take some asprin and let me know how it feels in a few weeks. Yup, gettin up there now :(

PA Funeral

Ok, so here in PA they take St. Patty's day very seriously. In a good way. Some friends took me and Steve out over the weekend to an Irish Wake at Bally's Hotel. It was a bar, and a huge tent out back, green beer was flowing, the band was there, it was great. We had so much fun, they have a guy get in a coffin and and the guys with bagpipes and kilts are going, they push this guy around and then girls go up and tell him jokes ( a man dressed as a girl, went up :) ) they are suppose to wake him up, he gets up and the drinking begins, I don't get the whole thing, the guy in the coffin was kinda creepy, but it was alot of fun after that. And the best jello shots !!! So my first funeral in PA - or wake, whatever they call it - was alot of fun. They really get into Patty's day and it was a Blast!!!

I know I haven't been myself lately, I know that this is not who I am, I know that there are things going on that I need to sort through and that with time it will be ok, now its been suggested on more than one occasion that I go see someone to help me sort these things out. I'm not ok with that though, but after more than one suggestion I agreed. Now lately I have been thinking alot about death, not in the way that everyone gets worried about. In the way that I know I'm not myslef lately but lets say that I pass away before I get back to where I was, what will God say to me? What will my kids think? Will they understand, will my husband have peace. What can I do to make sure that if that happens that they know I love them and they understand where I am at right now. So I told this to my agreed upon help and she informed me that I shouldn't think about that. That I shouldn't bother myself with such guilt, that that guilt is just making it harder for me to get back to me. So for the last two days that is what I have been trying, then I went to church this morning. The sermon was on outreach, and how you need to love now because tomorrow might never come. That if you passed today what would you say to the Lord, what would he think of you, and would you go to him pure in heart, would your family have good things to say about you after you were gone. That kind of think.
 So now what? Confused is what - so many things to be confused about.

Angela Basketball Games

Here are some pics of Angela's basket ball games, we are on the photos this year but I will try. As soon as school is over I will be much better. To see Angela pics Click Here

Super Bowl Sunday Pics

I know I haven't gotten any pics in a long time so here is just a few I have about 10 minutes till everyone gets home from Laser Tag and wants to eat so this was suppose to go up on Super Bowl Sunday. This was right before Hunter burnt himself. Click Here To see the few photos we took that day. We were too busy eating and then tending to Hunt man.