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Old Men

So yesterday I went into the store for the second time within a 10 minute time span and there was this 100 year old man smiling this enormous smile at this woman. I thought to my self ooohhhh that's so sweet, he's so happy for being so old. Most of the time when you see elderly men they are just plain faced, their eyes are soft but their faces are falling off their bones, well anyways the woman turned around and I realized why the man was not only smiling but now he was shaking his head and there was a glow in his eyes that wasn't there before, this woman had gargantuan tits! They were huge, and she was wearing a cleavage shirt - every shirt was probably a cleavage shirt for her but wholly cow, I dropped my mouth open just in amazement. I've never seen that big besides Dolly Parton! It was nuts, I just went to the toilet paper aisle and smiled to myself. That will be my hubby in 50 years, and I will be his wife behind him just rolling her eyes. :)

New Year 2012

By the date of this first entry you are probably reliazing that this year is just as busy if not busyier than last year.

School started back up and I was so thrilled. I hate saying that because I love my kids I do but its hard having all five of them home day after day. Wanting to do nothing at all, because school calls it a vacation. So why should they have to even wipe themselves - its their Vacation!!!!

Steve worked night shift on Christmas so that sucked. The older kids helped me play Santa for the little guy. Then I played Santa for the four older ones alone. Its not a horrible thing to have to do alone - its just one of those things that when you look around and smile, you think............wow I really do love it when my husband and I do want him here at these little times. It seems like there are so few left. The kids are growing up so fast. I listen to some of these stay at home Mom's talking about they cant wait for their husbands to work night shift, or wait for that overtime. Some actually like it when the hubby has to travel for work. Me - I watch the clock and when it turns to 26 after I'm staring at that door waiting for him to come in with the best smile a wife could have. The kids all jump up and hugs are being thrown at him from every direction. It takes all that I have to wait in the back of the line so everyone can get their fill. Then I can get my hug and kiss. I don't understand people. I guess it takes all kinds to make the world go around but its hard to sit next to some of these women when they open their mouths. Either way I know I come home to my own hugs and smiling faces. I love my family, even on THOSE days, Mom's know what I mean :)

My kiddos are getting so big! I'm not ready for the next few years. It is great to see them blossom. I love my family.

On our way to the Doc again. I feel like I live there! Steve has to work on Thanksgiving. It sucks but he will be home that night so we are going to do it late.

Boobies

My son is obsessed with Boobies! The other night he said I like your boobies..and smiled and laughed. I asked him why he liked Mommies boobies and he "cause their nice, mama". Hahahahahaha he has been asking about boys and girls and why girls have boobies and why boys don't. He wants to know why he has nipples and how Daddy has nipples too. :) These questions have been going on for a few weeks now.

its so weird how Something we all seem to know about and forget how curious we all once were when we were trying to figure it all out. His facial expressions when he seems to have made a connection, days later when he will repeat exactly what you said only this time he gets it. Its like seeing the light bulb bought, installed, and then shine bright. Remarkable and Entertaining :)

Halloween Fun

Halloween is always fun with the kids. Chase was a teenager (a parents worst nightmare - he informed us), Will was a dead wrestler, bleeding from his face, Angela was a flower child, Mia was a witch, and Hunter was a fire truck man! That's what he says when you ask him what he is. They got so much candy its not even funny.  I could gain 10 lbs in one day eating it all and not put a dent in it. Its insane. Hunter's costume was lent to us by a friend - it was a one piece suit, The warmest thing I've ever seen and good thing too since there is still snow on the ground from last weekend. The fireman hat is attached to the whole thing like a hoody so he was nice and warm. We trick or treated for about 3 hours, Hunter fell asleep really easy last night poor little guy was so tired. :) They all had a good time!

Funeral

The funeral was - what do you say nice? Grandma died so was it nice? Pretty? I don't know but lots of people are and all of them had wonderful things to say about the woman I called Grandma. She touched so many people. People I had never even heard of came and told their wonderful stories of how she affected them. One lady talked about when she was a child she lived next door and Grandma used to give her cookies and milk when she was locked out of the house, that she once told her what was her favorite cookie and Grandma had it for her the next time and the next..............She was such a good person. She was so special to so many people I'm lucky she was my Grandma. I feel blessed to have had her for a Grandmother. I can only pray that that many people are at my funeral. She is my hero and I didn't know it till she was gone. I love and miss her so much.

Getting Ready

Today we are packing, doing all the laundry gettin the car ready. Trying to get the kids to finish all their homework. The school was really good with them leaving, I asked if there was anyway they could get their homework, and they did and ready in the office. No waiting it was great.
Going to Chicago for the first time with anxiety, fear, and sorrow. I have always loved going to see Grandma, this trip I will remember for the rest of my life.

Sadness

 I can't believe she's gone. She was the glue to the family. Without her I don't know whats going to happen.  I've had the same dream all night over and over again. I'm at her funeral and I walk up to the casket and I can see her arms, her body but when I go to look at her face I can't. I can't look up and see her face then I'm back at Grandmas house coming down to go to school and she's sitting at the table drinking her coffee just like she was all the time. It didn't matter what time of the morning you got up Grandma was always there. Steve says its my way of dealing with it and once I have come to terms with her death I will have peace. But what if I don't want to come to terms............does it happen over time? Is this something you decide? How long to you mourn the dead.

Grandma Shultz

Grandma Shultz passed away in her bed Monday afternoon. I spoke with her last on Saturday. She was hard to understand but she knew who I was and told me she loved me and missed me. I will cherish that last phone call for the rest of my life. Her funeral will be on saturday, she is being cremated. A celebration of her life is being held at her house from 3-6 that day. Even though we all knew it was coming and hospice kept telling us it would be anytime soon I still can't believe she's gone. When I read the text from my Aunt.
"Mama just passed", those words hit you like a ton of bricks, you can't breathe - your eyes swell up instantly with tears and you let out a cry that can't be controlled even if you were to try with every ounce of your being. Then it hits your head - she will never wrap her arms around you again. You will never hear her call you Peanut anymore. The one nickname that stuck through out your life and she was the only one that was allowed to call you that. The fear of picking up the phone to call her and tell her how frieghtened you really are knowing no one is there to answer. All of this happens in the first few seconds you read those words "Mama just passed"

Today Hunter had his 1st field trip. We went to the fire station. He got to man the hose. He loved it!

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Ok Ok Ok its been awhile..................a long while................. more than a minute...........but I'm back again. So I'll be trying to catch everyone up on whats going on with us. Starting with a horrible event that took place a few weeks ago and we have yet to recover from. It has been the topic of many conversations and crying spells. Blamed for boredom and lack of fun. The kids are just in misery with out their TRAMPOLINE a few weeks back there was a hurricane and the winds made it this far off the coast and we go some. In this part of PA you never get anything like that but we did and with our trusty tramp sleeping in the back yard was kidnapped from our back yard and was mangled around several times and ended up in the ravine. Heart broken and teary eyes. every one of the kids said their good byes to our beloved Trampoline.

1st day of School

Well yesterday was the first day of school and the kids were so ready to go. They all woke up early, dressed, had lunch's ready and watching the clock. I should of been home enjoying my first day without them but I wasn't. The day before I had my infusion. Now on infusion days I am supposed to lay down and do nothing, the next few days do the same. The process of the meds hitting my body just wipes me out and I have to play catch up - so after my coffee date I just slept and stayed in bed. It was so weird without them here. Hunter cried, and it was kinda hard to watch the bus go away but the hardest part was realizing the boys are one year from High School and the girls 1 year from middle school. Sad how fast the years go.

The kids are watching the muppets take manhatten and I know every song in it!

Riplie

Two days ago we brought home 2 rescue cats. One boy - Riplie, and one sister - Daisy. They are both very lovable and sweet cats. They are 5 years old and they are just so cute. Tonight were sitting down starting to watch tv after dinner and the kids rush over, "We think one of the cats is inside the wall, stuck in there", Yeah right I said just kinda laughed and tried to get comfortable, then I hear the drill going - I jump up rush over to the dining room and see Chase standing up on a  chair unscrewing the grate for the vent that is on the wall. He opens it we look in, and see nothing. I am thinking that these kids have really just lost it this time when I hear a quiet, yet desperate.......mmmmeeeeoooowwwwww. OMG I jump into action - where is he, are we sure its him - we check the hiding place and only Daisy is there so yup its him all right. I'm short really short so standing on the chair to see inside the vent just nsn't cutting it, so I put Mia on my shoulders give her a flashlight and ask her what she see's. Nothing Nothing Nothing, but the cry from Riplie gets louder. Chase comes running down the stairs - I found her I found her. She's in your bathroom vent. We run upstairs and there's the vent with a tail coming out of it. Then wait where did it go? The tail is gone and a long cry comes from the vent. We were there for almost ten minutes calling her and trying to coax her out. I was out of ideas, the kids wanted me to go rent a jack hammer and open up the floor. Since that wasn't going to happen I did the next best thing. Had Mia run over to my friend / neighbors house. Get her, two heads are better than one and I had no idea what to do. I keep using a mirror to look and see where she was and she isn't getting any closer. Linda comes in and while I'm explaining what is going on there goes the tail again, out and waving around. I look at it look at Linda "Should I pull on it" "yes.yes. yes." I gave a few hard tugs, allowed for her body to turn and come out a quick on and out she came. Put here down and she walked around like it never happened. We made sure the vent was closed this time. Just a regular night here at the Boyer residence. :)

Date Night

Every week I have a date. Some weekends  its Saturday nights and and other's its Sundays but it comes like clock work every week. My date doesn't care what I'm wearing or if I'm on time. I don't have to put my hair up. I don't pull out my make up. I take my earrings out. I don't have special shoes or a favorite purse to match. My trinkets for the night are much different. My date doesn't care if I'm wearing perfume or if I'm ready. It only cares that I'm there. My trinkets are small but many. They range in color and yes some are fancy, but trinkets they remain. Do you know what trinkets are? Trinkets are things a lady has but doesn't really want. Now every female has trinkets, some different than others but we all have them. My date requests them. My date loves my trinkets or desperately hates them I haven't figured that one out yet. My trinkets come in a blue and white container. They are labeled and sectioned off into two categories. AM or PM. For every day of every week. My trinkets are my pills. And my date is with my Lupus. The pills that keep my wolf at bay are always close to me. No matter how many times I tell myself things are normal in my life, those two times a day comes. Then my lovely date that confirms it. Day after Day..........Week after week............

Helping Out

Watching a friends kids today. I find that I really do enjoy helping friends out but sometimes its just so hard to find the means to do it. So I'm excited that I can do it for today. She's helped me out quite a few times that it makes me feel good that I can finally help her out. Getting that warm and fuzzy feeling. Not for long ( you know me :) ) but its there for a moment!

Monday

You would think that staying home as a Mom Mondays wouldn't be so bad, right not like at a job you get back in gear and Mondays suck.. Well its the same thing at home! Only you have 5 kids that want to start the week instead of one boss. I have a case of the Mondays............

Church

Went to another church today. Not exactly what were looking for. Some parts of it are and some aren't. There is no Newlife here. I hate not having a church home. I need that foundation. I know Steve is Lutheran but he doesn't come to church but once a month with his schedule. We've tried out 5 or 6 church's now. Another one next week. :(